Part 1 – Trusting God When Your Body Doesn’t Make Sense
Introduction
There was a time when I didn’t think twice about breathing.
Working out was part of my life. Pushing my body, building strength, feeling capable—it was normal for me.
Until it wasn’t.
What started as something subtle became something I couldn’t ignore. And what I didn’t realize at the time was that this was the beginning of a journey that would test not only my physical health—but my faith.
When My Body Changed
After having COVID-19 in 2021, I began noticing something wasn’t right.
At first, it was small.
Workouts felt harder than they should. I couldn’t catch a full breath the way I used to. Cardio became almost impossible.
It wasn’t just being “out of shape.” It felt deeper than that.
And over time, it got worse.
Searching for Answers… and Finding None
Throughout 2022 and 2023, I went to urgent care clinics looking for answers.
Each time, I was told the same thing:
- “It’s allergies.”
- “It’s asthma.”
I was given inhalers. Steroids. Medications.
But nothing truly helped.
At some point, the inhalers stopped working completely.
And with every visit, I left feeling more discouraged.
The Emotional Toll
It’s hard to explain what it feels like when your body starts limiting the things you love.
For me, that was working out.
It wasn’t just exercise—it was part of who I was.
And suddenly, I couldn’t do it anymore.
I felt frustrated. Confused. Discouraged.
But more than anything… I felt unseen.
Trying to Take Control
Without insurance, I didn’t have the option to pursue extensive testing.
So I did what I could.
I researched my symptoms and came across Mast Cell Activation Syndrome. It seemed to match what I was experiencing.
So I made changes:
- I adjusted my nutrition
- Eliminated foods
- Added supplements
- Tried to support my body the best way I knew how
I was doing everything in my power to get better.
But deep down, I knew something still wasn’t right.
A Quiet Struggle of Faith
There’s something humbling about not having answers.
It forces you into a place where control is no longer yours.
And in that space, I had a choice:
Would I lean into fear…
Or would I trust God, even without understanding?
Some days, my faith felt strong.
Other days, it was simply a whisper:
“God, I don’t understand this… but I trust You.”
Scripture Reflection
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.” — Proverbs 3:5–6
At the time, nothing made sense.
But God doesn’t ask us to understand—He asks us to trust.
What I Didn’t Know Yet
Looking back now, I can see that God was already working.
Even in the moments I felt overlooked, when the answers still hadn’t come and nothing seemed to be changing, God was still working behind the scenes.
He was preparing the way for what was to come.
Devotional Thought
If you’re in a season where your body, your circumstances, or your life doesn’t make sense…
You are not alone.
And more importantly—you are not unseen.
God is working in ways you may not yet understand.
Prayer
Lord,
Even when I don’t understand what my body is going through, help me trust You.
When answers feel far away, remind me that You are near.
Give me peace in the waiting and strength in the unknown.
Amen.
